I don't feel good today.. No, I'm not refering to health wise. I feel SICK and TIRED... Not of my life or family etc. It's of the place I'm working in..

Some incident happened at work today. It's not happening to me, it's my colleague.. Shall not mention her name here.. But somehow, I seemed to be out of breath.. So suffocated.. To be working in this environment.

There are LOTS and LOTS of restrictions.. Be it officially or even personally. What happened to that colleague might someday happen to me too... Some things we do, no matter how small or how insignificant it may seem at that time, will somehow or rather being blown up in the future... There seem to be no little secrets you can keep as long as you stay there.. There doesn't even seem to have some privacy that you thought you have. It suddenly seems to me that once you have given your signature on that piece of employment letter, even your personal life is bounded by the ACT.

No, of cos I'm not a celebrity.. Yet, people will constantly watch what you do. Some actions you can't do. Some places you can't even go.. They will bite on to you once they got a chance to do so. And trust me, they will never let you off so easily.