This is the 1st time in my whole life I've ever feel so lost. Don't know which way to go. Don't know what should I do right now. Where should I go??

I've never had much ambition throughout my life. Maybe that's why I'm feeling this way now. Helpless... Clueless... Just living my life aimlessly...

I don't wish to stay this way now. Yet...

Hmm.. ok, forget it. I don't know what I want to say now.. ;(