Today is 27th March. Exactly 2 months later, I'll be walking down the aisle with Joe. Wonder how that day will be..

Starting to feel the mixed feelings already.. Excited, nervous, sad, worried, happy... Hmm.. Guess its all what brides-to-be will feel.. I'm feeling sad cos I'll be leaving my parents soon.. To start on a new life with Joe. I'm worried cos there will be no one to take care of my parents after that... They will be alone.. What makes me even more worried is the neighbourhood we are living in now.. There are those Bangladeshi/Indian national workers beside our flat. Most of the night, they will loiter around the staircase area talking. Then downstairs coffeeshop always got people drinking till late in the night.. Sometimes will hear very frightening quarrels.. Or drunkards causing a scene.. Then cos of the fact that my parents owned a shop, almost every night, some inconsiderate, selfish people will knock on our door, requesting to buy wines or whatever.. Still remember one incident that happen many years back.. Got one selfish fellow knocked on our door wanting to buy a bottle of wine.. It was very late already and the lights were all off. But that sickening fellow was still knocking very hard.. Trying to wake all of us up from our sleep. Of cos we were waken up by the noise. But we ignored the constant knocking. Finally, the fellow got angry or impatient.. And there he went smashing my window panel... The glass was shattered.. He left after that.. Damn sick right?!!

Can you imagine... What will happen after I left? I really dread to think.. Wanted to sell off the shop.. But there's no good price being quoted by those possible buyers.. And even if our house is sold off, where can my parents live?

How I wish all of us can live under one roof.. His parents, me & Joe, my parents etc.. At least I know all the people dearest to me are by my side & can always know if they are safe and sound!!

Will this day ever come?? I do hope so...